Erik Michael

Wed, 28 Aug 2002 17:16:18 GMT

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I guess there is a FIRST TIME for everything...

Tue, 27 Aug 2002 04:09:25 GMT

Well, I never made it to dinner tonight.

I have unlimited minibar access in my suite, so I stayed in with a good friend, had a few drinks and just talked. Pretty much.

I am so tired. I think I might actually get some sleep tonight.

Thank you. You know who you are.

When life gives you lemons...

Mon, 26 Aug 2002 19:47:18 GMT

I really fucked things up this time. Good things too. I'm so sorry.

I guess I am single. I don't know what to do with that. I don't even know if this is what I want. Sami, we really REALLY need to talk some more. just give me a little time to think this through.

I sort of came to the realization today that there are some things that just can't be changed. So you can either dwell on them and be pissed off all the time or you can lay back, go with the flow and not worry about it.

So starting RIGHT NOW, I am going to loosen up. I've got plenty of things to be happy about.

Tonight I am having dinner with Janie. A "strictly friends" sort of dinner, of course. She makes me smile like no one else can. I love that about her.

I talked to Joey Fatone today and realized just how out of the loop I am. Justin? Married? Earth to Erik. This is Earth calling Erik, come in Erik. So anyway, after that little conversation, I dont know if I am jealous of NSYNC's success or glad that it isn't us in the spotlight 24/7. Maybe a little of both.

No shows for a couple of days. God I wish I could sleep.

I'm eating a pop tart. I feel better.

Mon, 26 Aug 2002 16:14:56 GMT

I changed my screen name AGAIN. Some how, every time I change it, FANS get a hold of it. I swear, O-Town fans are like the CIA. Can't keep anything from those girls.

So, my new screen name is: erikmichaelO2

That is an "O", not a zero. Cheesy to put the album title in my screen name, I know. But what can I say? I am feeling very uncreative today.

Hit me up sometime.

I've been busy.

Mon, 26 Aug 2002 15:53:48 GMT

This tour has totally drained me.

I'm tired, my throat hurts and I sound like shit. I can't sleep at night. I am like THISCLOSE to burning out. After the last couple of shows, I am not going to so much as THINK about any fucking O-Town songs for as long as humaly possible. Which will, I'm sure, be a week or two before they pull me back on the promo circut.

Fuck all this rock shit. It's hard on the voice. I didn't want to do it anyway.

I tried to surprise Sami by meeting her at the airport... I loved seeing her, but it just felt like she was holding something back.

I wish you would just tell me what's bothering you, babydoll. I'm sorry that I haven't been the best at returning phone calls or emails or even updating this thing, but you know I've got nothin' but love for you! I promise that as soon as I get off this tour, we are gonna spend SO much time together! I miss you.

There's a pop tart in the cabinet that is calling my name, so I'm out.

Mon, 08 Jul 2002 17:16:21 GMT

Something happened last night that I am not going to tell ANYONE about.

Maybe Ashley. But that's IT. I don't know why I feel like I can trust you so much. Probably because we have a lot in common.

Anyway, I slept MUCH better last night. My fucking throat still hurts, but otherwise I'm in a good mood. Did you know we are going to be on a cereal box? A lot of them actually. Frosted Cheerios. We have a bunch of free boxes comin' to us. WOO! If there is one thing I love, it's cereal.

And sex.

I'm not going to smoke today. I decided that last night.

Okay, maybe just one or two. Not a pack though. Maybe half a pack.

Gotta run, Billy just text messaged me. I think we're going to lunch. Again. I love going to lunch, especially when someone else is paying.

Mon, 08 Jul 2002 00:39:11 GMT

I couldn't sleep last night. I've got so much on my mind. I need to go back to therapy.

My throat hurts. I hope I'm not getting sick again. That would fucking suck. I need to quit smoking.

I had lunch with my friend Billy from NY today. So that was nice. He's in town for the next couple of weeks so we are going to be out and about a lot. Hopefully it'll keep me from thinking too hard.

I am eating a pudding cup right now.

And thinking.

And smoking.

And my throat hurts.

And I DO TOO HAVE SEX!

I'm going to call Billy now.

Finally... An update!

Sun, 07 Jul 2002 04:29:34 GMT

It's been a LONG time. I apologize. I have been BUSY. Well, no. Busy is not the word. That implies that I have been doing PRODUCTIVE things. I have been OCCUPIED.

I have noticed during the past couple of weeks that people are too fucking hard to please. I'm done with people. I'll stick with my parakeets thanks. And Sami. And Ashley. But that's it.

And maybe *ACERTAINSOMEONE* too.

Anyway, I am halfway anticipating the MASS amounts of publicity we are going to have to start doing coming up. I love my job, I really do. Sometimes certain people piss me off, but as we all know, it doesn't take much to piss Erik off. Overall though, I really couldn't ask for a better career.

Well, that was sappy. You'll have to forgive me, I'm halfway to tipsy and I plan on gettin there within the next 10 minutes. So if anything I post here is cheesy, stupid or otherwise moronic, you know why.

Or else it's just me being me. Which is really what I do best.

Okay, I'm off to get shit faced now. Just thought I would give you a quick update since I KNOW you were ALL on the edge of your seat screaming "WHEN IS ERIK GONNA UPDATE AGAIN?!?!?!?I CANT LIVE WITHOUT AN UPDATE FROM ERIK!!!!!!!"

So there you have it.

By the way, I changed my AIM screen name. It is "LJErikEstrada". IM me sometime!

And Sami, I love being with you. I've been missing you like crazy. Thank you for tonight! Lets to it again sometime. Te amo. We WON'T forget again. I promise.

Kinda sorta maybe time for a change?

Tue, 25 Jun 2002 14:09:51 GMT

Like new icons?
New things to do with my life.
Just knew everything man.
I need to talk to Sami again. I feel refreshed when ever I do. I was also thinking of surprising her sometime. Like this weekend actually. Just flying out for no reason and taking her in my arms and hugging her. Love does wonderful things to you. Yes it does.

And that was my very pointless update if you were looking for something entertaining! ;)

PS. What really sucks is LJ when you don't have a paid account. I can't do anything with my icons or post in other journals. I'm confused! *kills LJ*

It's so strange.

Tue, 18 Jun 2002 01:58:29 GMT

I feel strange. Real strange. Strange as in a feeling I've never felt before. Some sort of jealousy trip on someone. I'm jealous of nothing actually. I just feel jealous like I'm missing on something special. I know I have Sami, but I'm not all that I'm suppossed to be for her. I'm never there and maybe I'm jealous of my ownself. Does that even make sense? God Gracious, I think I need some serious mental help right about now. I want to get on AIM so bad, but I'm in fear of talking to anyone because I'll make myself totally stupid. I hate life sometimes...

God, I really wish there was a way a could do this and get it all over with...but I can't. I just can't...

WEEEEEEEEEE!!!

Sat, 15 Jun 2002 05:15:40 GMT

Updating cuz I haven't in a while. I'm bored. Uhhhmmm. But, I was actually just heading off the internet and tucking myself in bed. I'm really tired. I'm always tired matter of factly. I think it's because of the tour ya know? A lot has been going on. I love the fans responces to the new songs. "I Showed Her" is getting a lot of respect. I'm so glad. Congrat's Dan on writing such a wonderful song. Uhhh... that's it from me, I guess.

I still love Sami with all my heart. I hope to see her soon...very soon. *smiles and shuts off the light*

Guess who's back...

Fri, 07 Jun 2002 15:32:32 GMT

Tell a friend, Erik's back, Erik's back, Erik's back. ERIK IS BACK!!

Sami, my darling. I've missed you. Tour life is one crazy job. But I wouldn't change it for the world and you're loved by me and you don't have to worry if I'm not there because I will always be there in your heart.

If I don't update for awhile or I don't get on AIM you ALL know it's because I'm a very busy man. But I still love you all. Don't ever think that I don't and/or that I don't think about you.

*goes off singing Em's new song*

He did a great job last night at the Awards. He was cool!! I think it's my new obsession in music. *shrugs* Byeeeeeeeee!

[OOC ~ Last time Sorry!] -- GOODBYE!!!

Thu, 23 May 2002 05:33:20 GMT

[I'm giving up Erik. And I mean that this time. I'm not feeling him anymore and to be honest, I only wanted this character because I was in love with O-Town, now I could careless. I'm sorry. It's just really hard to play some many other people as well. If you know what I mean. So yeah, please let me know if you want this journal. Email me at lj_erik_michael@yahoo.com if you want it. Please. This character needs the attention he deserves and nothing the way I wanted to go went so when you take the character I hope you do a good job. Thanks so much! Please contact me asap! Goodbye, it was a lot of fun while it lasted.]

Bored...

Mon, 20 May 2002 17:27:36 GMT

And I was told to update. *UPDATES*

Edit: there was a survey here...
But screw it cuz my computer is real mean, it doesn't like me!

Updating for the sake of updating...

Sat, 11 May 2002 06:56:56 GMT

I'm alive. Tired. Alive. Tired. Alive.

Just ALIVE.

That's my update for the time being. Even though I'm alive. I need sleeeeeeeep!

Funny ain't it?!

Wed, 08 May 2002 05:00:27 GMT

HAHA! I'm talking to Sam. Got myself hyper. I was hyper when I got on, but now I'm even more hyper. I tell ya having starbucks when it's time to go sleep isn't a very good combination. I mean, it makes you all giggly and stuff. And I really should be in bed. Ooops. Oh well, I found Sam on and I'm happy. Talking to her makes me very giggly and happy and I just love her. Yes, I LOVE HER! Wow, I don't believe can say that so open and freely, I never thought I could. She completes me in a way no one else ever did.

Anyway, I took a quiz. And this is completly funny to me! Haha.

Oh wow!

Mon, 06 May 2002 00:57:17 GMT

Updating for the sake of updating. Just wow. I mean, I've been living in this world where only I existed. I guess I just needed to clear my head. Dude, I'm sorry for not updating and the number 1 thing being there for Samantha. I still think about you girl. I just don't have time. I know I'm a bad boyfriend and I just wish you'd admit that already.

Janie and Jake's wedding was awesome, words can't even describe how beautiful it was and of course I cried. I cried like a baby matter of fact. It's been over a week now since the wedding, sorry I'm just updating about that now. But grrr, I guess maybe I'm kinda jealous or something. I guess I want to be married...wait no, I don't want that. Haha. I can't even be there for my girl now how could I be the perfect husband? *sighs*

Well, that's my update, I've gotta go now. Sleep is calling, I've also learned how to tire myself out real well. Talk with you all later when I can get the chance to update again! :)

Update! yes

Thu, 25 Apr 2002 19:15:28 GMT

[I think I'm going to stay here. I just can't seem to find someone that'll be a good character for Erik. So I'm sticking to being Erik. So yeah, I'm Erik, Erik Michael!] *smiles*

And I'm back and better than ever...for now. *grins weakly* At least I shall try. And I can't promise, I'll be on as much but I will be here! ;)

Bye for now,
~Erik

PS: Tonight is Janie and Jakes wedding. I'm the best man. I must prepare myself and get ready for the adventure. I can't wait to see Sam tonight either. Her dress must be so pretty. And just think how beautiful Janie is going to look. Aww, just precious. Tonight shall be great! ;)

[I'm sorry...so so so sorry!]

Tue, 23 Apr 2002 23:04:55 GMT

[I know OOC sucks, but this well it just has to be here. I'm not a good Erik, I thought I could be a good one but I guess I wasn't cuz I never got around to updating and being there for LJ!Sam, which I always promised so I'm giving up this character cuz I don't have time anymore anyway and I know there is someone else out there that is much better at playing him then I can. So if you are out there email me and let me know. If I don't get anyone soon I'll come back and try and continue, till now I have a lot of other things that are more important to me and my school work and other things that are a daily part of my life. Thanks for understanding and I hope non of you hate me. Just don't forget to email me and let me know what you want to do!]

updating...whooo!!!

Sun, 14 Apr 2002 02:02:27 GMT

I'm hyper. Maybe it was the soda. Who knows. Or maybe it was just the fact that I signed on AIM hoping for Sam and there she was!!! I feel horrible for not being the perfect boyfriend but I do try and that's what matters.

Right now it's all about getting the tour ready and so that's why I'm lacking updates. I'm sorry y'all. And I won't promise that I can update as often as I say I will because I know I can't. Haha.

So yes, that's my update and that's what is going on in my life...NOTHING. Haha. Just Sam. She's what matters! :-D

points to new icon

Wed, 10 Apr 2002 04:45:55 GMT

*smiles*

Aren't we cute together!?!?!?!

Updating....and yay!!!

Wed, 10 Apr 2002 00:13:25 GMT

I'm so happy.

Janie and Jacob asked me to be their best man in their wedding! I've never been so honored in my life. And who would have known that Janie and Jake would get married...

And I'm also updating for Sam, because I love her and she needs to know that she's all I think about even if I'm not always there!

Gotta jet. I'm talking to Sam now. Hehe. Can't do two things at once! ;)

Good Afternoon.

Tue, 02 Apr 2002 19:57:40 GMT

I slept the whole day. Wow, I was tired. I don't even remember what I did yesterday to make myself that tired. I guess just hanging with Samantha is so much fun. I wonder where she is right now? I'm a dork and slept! I want to take her out tonight. A dinner and a movie. Typical, but it's all good.

*Looks at the paper* No good movies? *frowns* Hmmm, I'll have to decide on something else. *continus to browse paper for something entertaining to do in NYC*

New Layout!

Fri, 29 Mar 2002 02:26:08 GMT

Cuz I just love her so much. And because I learnd how and because I felt like it.

I'm in a great mood today. I got my a Vanilla Chai from Dunkin' Donuts. I'm all good! :-D

*runs away jumping around*

I'm updating...

Thu, 28 Mar 2002 06:41:40 GMT

It's been a while since I've updated. I'm so so sorry. I've been so busy that I don't have time. But this time my busyness is because of Samanatha. I've just been with her...almost 24/7. She's so wonderful. I don't know what I'd do without her.

I promise to try and upate some more. And I'll get on AIM sometime later this week. Sorry y'all!